明るい場所で目を閉じても
光の中にいるように感じて
少し慣れればその光さえ暗く感じる
明るい場所から暗い場所にいくと
なにも見えないのは少しの間で
少し待てばすべて見えてくる
少し待てば痛みも慣れてくる
疑問も悲しみも悔しさも
時間が経てば蒸発する水のようにどこかに消えて
感覚さえも消えていく
変化がなければ気付かないことばかりで
生まれ持った傷をもつものはきっと痛みを痛みと感じない
慣れてしまっただけのことを強くなったと勘違いして
痛みに向き合わず生きてきただけなのかもしれない
人は他人の痛みを理解できないからこそ
人に優しくできるのかもしれない
全てを自分のものさしで理解出来たことなら
この世界はもっと冷酷な場所だっただろう
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She closes her eyes in the bright place
The light stays in her eyes at first
Then, she doesn't feel the light in her eyes anymore
She goes to the dark place from the bright place
She can't see anything at first
Until she gets used to
she gets used to everything
The brightest moments to the darkest moments
She is now dull to all the pain and sadness
all the love she holds
She no longer questions the pain she holds
Just like how water evaporates and disappears
Her heart is blinded without the changes
She no longer defines the pain as pain
She might become ignorant of her own pain
and believe she is stronger than ever before
She is gentle because
She does't feel like you do
This world would be even more cruel place to breathe in
if we weigh the pain and happiness with one kind of scale
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