When Water Evaporates

明るい場所で目を閉じても

光の中にいるように感じて

少し慣れればその光さえ暗く感じる

明るい場所から暗い場所にいくと

なにも見えないのは少しの間で

少し待てばすべて見えてくる

少し待てば痛みも慣れてくる

疑問も悲しみも悔しさも

時間が経てば蒸発する水のようにどこかに消えて

感覚さえも消えていく

変化がなければ気付かないことばかりで

生まれ持った傷をもつものはきっと痛みを痛みと感じない

慣れてしまっただけのことを強くなったと勘違いして

痛みに向き合わず生きてきただけなのかもしれない

人は他人の痛みを理解できないからこそ

人に優しくできるのかもしれない

全てを自分のものさしで理解出来たことなら

この世界はもっと冷酷な場所だっただろう

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She closes her eyes in the bright place

The light stays in her eyes at first

Then, she doesn't feel the light in her eyes anymore

She goes to the dark place from the bright place

She can't see anything at first

Until she gets used to

she gets used to everything

The brightest moments to the darkest moments

She is now dull to all the pain and sadness

all the love she holds

She no longer questions the pain she holds

Just like how water evaporates and disappears

Her heart is blinded without the changes

She no longer defines the pain as pain

She might become ignorant of her own pain

and believe she is stronger than ever before

She is gentle because

She does't feel like you do

This world would be even more cruel place to breathe in

if we weigh the pain and happiness with one kind of scale